update

well, it's been quite a while since i've posted on here.
not that i particularly care, nor do i think any of you actually care.
doubt any of you even read this shit. but i think it's time that i update it with what's going on.

adam and kay finally let me meet this bell boy dude at the hotel in paris that they always go to
and well, i brought him home with me, we got him a job, and now we're datin.
he's quite amazin, and he treats me really well.
though i think that's partly because of the fear that adam has instilled into the poor dude.
think phillippe knows that adam will kill him if he hurts me.

the pub is fine, me and the boy are both workin there cause adam kinda demanded it.
things got a bit rocky a few weeks back, but everythin seems to be alright now
sometimes it still a bit up and down, but no one's run away or had anythin drastically happen to them.
and no one's ended up in the hospital again. so it's all good.
other than that there really isn't much to say
unless you want me to discuss my sex life with the bell boy. mmm

not meant to be

It's never enough to say I'm sorry
It's never enough to say I care
But I'm caught between what you
Wanted from me, and knowing
If I give that to ya
I might just disappear.

Nobody wins when everyone's losing

Oh, it's like

One step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I can't change your mind,

Oh, it's like

Trying to turn around on a one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me and I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be

It's never enough to say I love you
No, it's never enough to say I try
It's hard to believe that's there's
No way out for you and me
And it seems to be,
The story of our life

Nobody wins when everyone's losing

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I can't change your mind, oh

It's like trying to turn around on a
One way street. I can't give
You what you want and it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
That maybe we're not meant to be

There's still time to turn this around
Should we be building this up
Instead of tearing it down
But I keep thinking
Maybe it's too late.

It's like one step forward
And two steps back,
No matter what I do
You're always mad
And I, can't change your mind, oh

It's like tryin to turn around
On a one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me and I,
I finally see,
Baby that we're not meant to be

It's like one step forward,
And two steps back,
No matter what I do
You're always mad,
And I, Baby I'm sorry to see,
Maybe that we're not meant to be

Useless

I'm feeling completely useless
and there is nothing that anyone can really do.
i know that there are people that love me, and that they care about me.
but that doesn't mean that it makes me feel any better about anything.



lately, it seems like everyone forgets about me until i get on twitter.
then, even when i'm on there, no one listens to anything i've got to say
and i just get ignored. so why should i bother keep putting myself through that?
i probably shouldn't.



we'll see.

why

Why the actual fuck does everyone ignore me
then when adam gets pissed off because you all fucking ignored me
you finally fucking say something?


mhm


thanks all for not listening to me and waiting until he gets pissy.

*sigh*

i'm right back to where i was when i got home yesterday.

great

thank you

Thanks to a very very very select few of you.

i'm actually feeling like i'm worth something again.

i'm not 100% better, but i'm about 80% of the way there.

thank you, you know who you are.

phase 2

yup. this comes in stages.

now i'm extremely pissed off.

i got up to go outside and smoke a blunt, let my dog out and relax.

well. i came inside more pissed off than when i went out. so i decided to start doing the dishes. well, i was getting aggitated and i threw a dish, and it shattered. obviously i cut my hand picking up all the glass.

fuck this shit

i forgot

sorry if i ever bothered you

it'll never happen again

bye

i'm sorry

Sorry i'm too much of a bitch for anyone to actually care

sorry no one actually likes me for me.

sorry people don't like listening to what i have to say.

i'll leave everyone alone now.

bye

Clearly

Clearly i only post on here when somethings wrong.

well, hopefully i can change that. not that i have anything really upbeat to say.

I do have a happy blog planned for the future. OOOO the mystery! hah

you'll just have to wait and see what it is about. KEEP READING DAMMIT! hahah

Well, this blog is about how i got the bottom of my belly button pierced earlier yesterday.

My dog's nails caught it and tugged on it. so now it's so sore and it's all red and puffy! ah fuck.

not nearly as bad as adam's fear of one of the babies pulling on his new nipple ring. hahah.

well. this was basically because i felt like posting something other than me randomly bitching someone out for being stupid. =] Even though i know you all LOVE reading those blogs of mine! hahah. surprisingly i've never gotten a comment telling me to stfu. not yet at least. hah.

ohwell. off for now.

aims xox

I don't even fucking know you

And i can not fucking stand you with a mother fucking passion.

You don't tell a mentally unstable person to "get your life together" nor do you fucking say "fuck you" to him.

Jesus fucking christ you stupid dumb bitch.

LEARN WHO THE FUCK YOU'RE TALKING TO BEFORE YOU SAY SHIT!

seriously you dumb cunt. don't fucking tell people what to do, or how to fucking live their lives. you don't even know the fucking beginning of it, you have no fucking right to say any of the fucking shit you did.

FUCK YOU YOU FUCKING DUMB FUCKING BITCH!

grow the fuck up.

leave adam the fuck alone.

kthnxbi

JFC

Fucking tired of being called a fucking liar.

everyone can go and fuck themselves in the fucking arse. seriously.

kthnxbi

HOLY FUCK

Fuckin christ

You stupid hypocritical bitch. Give it up already. CLEARLY you don't fucking read anything that we've posted about you. No, we don't want your fucking sympathy. We want you to realise that you are in the fucking wrong. that this is all your god damed mother fucking fault. you're a stupid bitch! i really never thought this about you, i thougt you were a great friend. but the harder you fucking pushed, the more it made me want to stop talking to you. THEN you blame me for everything, and say that i'm looking for a scapegoat.

WRONG! I'm fucking blaming you for everything that was your god damned fault! you caused all this. jsut take the mother fucking blame for something that you did, and just fucking apologise. stop making us out to be the bad people in all of this.

FUCKING GROW THE FUCK UP!

clever title here....

I forgot.

I love my life.

I love my friends. they are who and what makes me me. I do what i want, when i want, and i really don't give two fucking shits about what anyone has to fucking say. just get the fuck over yourselves and realise that not everything we tweet, is about you. seriously. things are said that weren't actually directed at you. and yet, you think they are. then you go through and bitch about how we say that things you tweeted aren't about us! you're a fucking hypocrite. get the fuck over yourself and realise our lives don't revolve around you.

bye

FUCK YOU

Well, As you can see this is clearly my first blog. I don't really have much to say right now other than back the fuck off. You fucked up. You fucking hurt us. You pushed too fucking far, and now Adam, Kay, and I are through with you. You've completely fucked yourself over and you lost the best friends you could possibly have. I protect my best friend. I protect his wife. And you just shoved yourself right in the middle. Not only did you try and take me from them, and tell them that our relationship was something we should stop, but you tried to put yourself into every other relationship that Adam had. Grow the fuck up and realise that just because he is friendly and very willing to help people doesn't mean that you can take advantage of him.

I thought you were cool. I thought you were amazing actually. A good friend that was willing to be there and help me, and someone that never failed to make me smile. Someone that i greatly enjoyed talking to. Til you went and fucked it all up. You pushed and pushed yourself into adam's face, and you attached yourself to every conversation there was that any of us had. yeah, you listened and you were really sweet. loved talking to you. loved hanging out with you. but you just tried too fucking hard. and no, you really didn't care about anything. sorry to say love, but you're not the person that i actually thought you were.

my bad. apparently i have shit judge of character. mhmkay.

later.

aims

( ms. THIRTEEN !? )